I had major insomnia issues last night. My pro cell phone cloak turned 3 am and I was still awake. I shouldn’t b worried since all my bills are payed and I have replaced diet coke with coffee. Wait that might just be it, caffeine zombie. It wasn’t fun at all this morning when my alarm went off.

I have a small ear infection that been bugging me through the whole sinter Claus weekend. I ate too many chocolate letters as always so I had to waste some sugar energy by running. It was the first time my legs didn’t get any exhaustion pain, which means that I’m getting better, or that the sugar possibly numbed my senses. It might be just me but my jeans feels a bit looser around the butt area so might as well keep it up. I bought myself new earphones that block all outdoor sounds for my birthday and it really helps me relax more when I exercise. It might sound weird but it works.

A certain someone is stalking me again and this time he is armed with guilt. I don’t know what to say really. I hate it when people want straight answers that I can’t give. Normally when someone hurts me over and over again they turn into dust in my world. I can forgive but never forget and I will make sure that this person never forgets either. I’m not evil, just realistic. My trust is earned once and if you lose it then you can’t get it back. You where right about one thing though; this year has been though for me and you didn’t make it better.

I have a wave of inspiration again flushing over me and am currently working on a tribute to very talented [link] . I have never talked to her and can’t say that I know who she is as a person, but her art fascinates me. There is just something that can’t make me stop going back to her page and view her amazing work. I’m still hoping that miss [link] will contribute with a small poem to my sketch. We will see what happens.

I am now active on Facebook...again. To my surprise I found some relatives and old friends and what you know...all expect [link] and my sisters are even pregnant or have babies. Now I feel really old but yea...a kid before 30 is a no no no. Actually I don’t think I want to have kids at all but if Mr. Right comes along I just might change my mind. If you want you can add me on Facebook. I need people to talk with so I’ll stay active this time
Until next time..Give two persons that you love a big hug,

Yea a month..My bad..lets recap the latest events in my life....
.... ..... yea nothing.

or wait...there was theese small things:
I found my brown shoes thats been missing since june....they where under my bed al along. and I have cleand the bedroom since then..../facepalm

I had a mental breakdown for a day and jumped on two garbagebags. I also accidently threw away someones stuff because I had an idea in my head that he dosnet care about me...which i guess sometimes is partly true, but such is life.

I lost my camera. Im pretty sure it got stolen in the park and no money to buy a new one. ye Im sad.

I burned up my favorit skirt..that made me even sader.

Today its my birthday...which is the most depressing part of this month. I hate getting older.

I ate too much chocolate and feel very guilty over that.

I havnt exercised as much as I want too due to cold weather and lazyness

Saw 6 was worse then 5. Hollywood scary movies are taking a political toll and its not even funny anymore. Expect Saw 7 (yes we gonna scream all we want but its gonna happen) to deal with issues like teen pregnacies and drugs...or wait...drugs was in saw 3...anyhow moving on.

2012 was a majestic movie that really sweapt me away. I can totally see that happning in the future if we dont take action now.

Micahel Jacksons "This is it" was simple made to earn the money lost in the event of his dead. If you are a true MJ fan then do not support this movie. May his leagacy rest in peace.

Stay tuned for more shitty drawings and 1 Painting. plan to post them today.

Because Im not dead xD. Just dont have anything to write about at the moment so bare with me.

meanwhile 5 days left to saw 6...50 cent on that its gonna suck.

how are you?

Horrible night, followed by some fuck yous, followed by major headache equals exhaustion. Like Audrey oday said to puff before he fired her: “I’m tired of feeling unhappy”. Whatever magical relive glow I had when I left Amsterdam it’s long gone now. My dream of happiness and feeling content has turned into a struggle of survival. I don’t know if it’s the struggle itself or my self-hate that is dragging me down once again in to this melancholic state where I don’t care at all. I don’t expect prince charming to start caring, after all he clearly stated that he doesn’t and prolly never will. In case all communication ends here you know where you can keep yourself updated. Enough with this emo shit let’s move on to the art.

I have submitted my first tutorial here on DA. It is an easy step by step guide to shading. The idea was born when I noticed that younger artists have real problems with how to apply shades in their art. Most tutorials that are already out there is more showing off the artists skills rather then explaining methods and materials. In my opinion that not what a tutorial is for. Who knows I just might submit more if requested. Feed back is always welcome.

One hour of sleep is next before my lame ass work; pray that he will leave me alone.

I’m starting to feel more and more of the Blog generation that spreading over the net. Over the last 5 years more sites have been created and more people in all ages start to share their opinions and daily events with the world. As always when it comes to a new trend it crawls down in the ages very quickly. Teens aged 12 – 16 have blogs that describes their party experience and blown up views on various things like friendly moms with fat asses.

of these teen bloggers is Amanda from the blog [link]. She is in the same league as Kissy kissy.se and blondinbella. A young blonde girl that makes pointless movies about her apperence and to seduce sugar daddies with her fake dyed hair and so called breasts. I have watched her videos numerous times to see if I could find anything productive in her vlogs but sadly that wishful thinking. Girls like these are attention whores, no matter what they say to justify it. I mean it’s kind of obvious what they are after when they stand in front of a mirror in a tight top. Seriously these blogs could be categorized as child pornography.

Although Amanda has reached the withering heights of popularity it’s not exactly positive. Over 95 procent of her you tube comments are mean and refer to her lack of brain (which I partly agree with). Sadly I don’t think she gets that people are more mocking her then thinking she is a goddess. Here is my top 3 Amanda blogs that I think is on the border to porn:

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In this video she is not only touching her hair 24/7, she rambles about her new sweather and how happy she is to be popular.

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In this video she expresses her fangirl statues over Paris Hilton and how much she wants to be like her.

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in this video she expresses how she wants to kill all the friends mom with fat asses because they don’t move out of her way.

I cant resist to post my 2 favorite parody videos aswell:
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