Because Im not dead xD. Just dont have anything to write about at the moment so bare with me.

meanwhile 5 days left to saw 6...50 cent on that its gonna suck.

how are you?

Horrible night, followed by some fuck yous, followed by major headache equals exhaustion. Like Audrey oday said to puff before he fired her: “I’m tired of feeling unhappy”. Whatever magical relive glow I had when I left Amsterdam it’s long gone now. My dream of happiness and feeling content has turned into a struggle of survival. I don’t know if it’s the struggle itself or my self-hate that is dragging me down once again in to this melancholic state where I don’t care at all. I don’t expect prince charming to start caring, after all he clearly stated that he doesn’t and prolly never will. In case all communication ends here you know where you can keep yourself updated. Enough with this emo shit let’s move on to the art.

I have submitted my first tutorial here on DA. It is an easy step by step guide to shading. The idea was born when I noticed that younger artists have real problems with how to apply shades in their art. Most tutorials that are already out there is more showing off the artists skills rather then explaining methods and materials. In my opinion that not what a tutorial is for. Who knows I just might submit more if requested. Feed back is always welcome.

One hour of sleep is next before my lame ass work; pray that he will leave me alone.

I’m starting to feel more and more of the Blog generation that spreading over the net. Over the last 5 years more sites have been created and more people in all ages start to share their opinions and daily events with the world. As always when it comes to a new trend it crawls down in the ages very quickly. Teens aged 12 – 16 have blogs that describes their party experience and blown up views on various things like friendly moms with fat asses.

of these teen bloggers is Amanda from the blog [link]. She is in the same league as Kissy kissy.se and blondinbella. A young blonde girl that makes pointless movies about her apperence and to seduce sugar daddies with her fake dyed hair and so called breasts. I have watched her videos numerous times to see if I could find anything productive in her vlogs but sadly that wishful thinking. Girls like these are attention whores, no matter what they say to justify it. I mean it’s kind of obvious what they are after when they stand in front of a mirror in a tight top. Seriously these blogs could be categorized as child pornography.

Although Amanda has reached the withering heights of popularity it’s not exactly positive. Over 95 procent of her you tube comments are mean and refer to her lack of brain (which I partly agree with). Sadly I don’t think she gets that people are more mocking her then thinking she is a goddess. Here is my top 3 Amanda blogs that I think is on the border to porn:

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In this video she is not only touching her hair 24/7, she rambles about her new sweather and how happy she is to be popular.

[link]
In this video she expresses her fangirl statues over Paris Hilton and how much she wants to be like her.

[link]
in this video she expresses how she wants to kill all the friends mom with fat asses because they don’t move out of her way.

I cant resist to post my 2 favorite parody videos aswell:
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The new romance comedy “The proposal” with Sandra Bullock has been out for quite some time (in fact I think it’s the last week they are showing it in the cinemas here in the Netherlands) and I have been saying to myself that I should go and watch it. Normally I don’t really like these types of movies but the girl gens in me forces myself conscious to watch them. It’s also great movies to binch eat ice-cream to as well, but now days I’m only binchin diet coke. (Seriously I think I can never stop with that habit.

The movie has several messages about the importance of family and how you can rely on them when needed. Since I technically don’t have one it really touched my pre menstrual mood and I cried like a sissy girl at the end. I know it’s a bit pathetic but sometimes it’s good to let go and just cry a river.

On another note I actually made a new drawing. It’s a tribute to the blogger Hanna soderstrom and the lovely [link] contributed with a tribute poem to match the drawing. If I only could capture more of her beauty then my work would be complete. Then again it’s only the first skis, practice makes perfect in due time.

I currently have two themes circulating around in my head:

Ecstasy
Violent Storm

Don’t really know how to put these ideas in a creative way without taking pills XD. I made a quick sketch today over the last mentioned. I still get extremely frustrated because I see so many mistakes and too much simplicity. 9 year olds have better skills then me and that bugs me allot.

So how are you on your side of the world?

Ps. I apologise for not being so active writing, but new week new chances. I will try to post a new blog every day if people want to read D.S.

I was browsing Youtube for something random to watch and I came across this guy with the screen name NormsBarStool. At first I didn’t think too much of him since his videos are quite boring and doesn’t really have any important to say, but there is one that stands out in his playlist: [link]
Partly because he is being a flaming retard, but also because he looks a lot like Peter Griffin from Family Guy.

For those of you who don’t know what family guy is here is a short description:
“Family Guy is animated television sitcom, created by Seth Macfarlane, for the Fox Broadcasting Company. The series centers on a dysfunctional family called the Griffins which consist of Peter, Lois, Chris, Meg, Stewie and Brian. The show is set in the fictional town of Quahog, Rhode Island. The show uses frequent "cutaway gags," jokes in the form of tangential vignettes which lampoon American Culture, society and television, and many aspects of the human condition. (Wikipedia 25 august.)”

Norm is in my eyes is most likely the person that inspired Macfarlane to the character Peter griffin. He has everything from the right body type, to the retarded intellengce that made the character famous. Here is a video that shows it: [link]
Look at his face impressions and his pokey eyes. Don’t you think it looks like Mr. Griffin?