Ever since I was a kid I have been afraid of the dark and the boogey man. The fear is just as real as it was when I was 6, dreaming about mummies and their hollow tombs. Still it doesn’t stop me from watching horror movies or play horror games, but somewhere in the back of mind a mental block exists to remind of that scary feeling that kept me awake at night. This mental block is the reason why I can’t play Doom 3. When the game first came out, my friend bought and played it while I was watching. I remember in particularly this staircase, the second you approach the stairs a monster jumps out, this scared the shit out of me and still does. Now 6 years later I’m still too scared to walk up these damn stairs. My mental block keeps reminding me how scary this game is. Yet still I love it, I love the Doom series so much that I even watched the movie more than 5 times. As you may all know the movie really sucked, not even the rock could save it. Anyhow I aim to finish the game on Saturday, if Tristan holds my pinkie toe. Next game I plan to start playing is fear, but I have the same problem with that game. Tristan will have fun for sure because I scream like a sissy girl.

I still haft to make that life decision making phone call so will try tonight. I’m really nervous for some reason. Don’t know why. Edit: I made it and it was really awkward but I think all will be good in the end. So yea wish me luck on Friday. Nothing is still settled and it worries me.

I was a good girl last night and finished my drawing of MJ. I will post it as soon as I’m finished with the move and everything. My boss is holding some kind of sushi party for me and I’m not looking forward to it. I hate parties with people I don’t like.

I have already packed most of my stuff. It feels so bizarre to see all my belongings in 4 bags. I miss having a real home. Hopefully it will come soon. I committed the worse crime ever: I threw away shoes. I should be sentenced for life. Sometimes I wonder if it’s programmed in a girls brain to be addicted to shoes. Maybe it is.

After watching made on my long break I really miss being spoiled with love and poetry. Luckily I will get spoiled with tons of love in a few days and I can’t wait. On Made it was this girl Shelby that had two boys running after her, Lucas and Adam. Lucas was definitely my favorite since he wrote a beautiful poem called Masterpiece. Of course good guys never win so she chose Adam. I think the whole world felt Adams heartbreak.

what the hell? over 10.000 page views? how did that happend? I mean thank you!

Songs:
[link]
[link]
(ignore the crappy animee video)

Movies:
Bruno
Borat

Until next time. Give away three hugs to someone you adore