Horrible night, followed by some fuck yous, followed by major headache equals exhaustion. Like Audrey oday said to puff before he fired her: “I’m tired of feeling unhappy”. Whatever magical relive glow I had when I left Amsterdam it’s long gone now. My dream of happiness and feeling content has turned into a struggle of survival. I don’t know if it’s the struggle itself or my self-hate that is dragging me down once again in to this melancholic state where I don’t care at all. I don’t expect prince charming to start caring, after all he clearly stated that he doesn’t and prolly never will. In case all communication ends here you know where you can keep yourself updated. Enough with this emo shit let’s move on to the art.

I have submitted my first tutorial here on DA. It is an easy step by step guide to shading. The idea was born when I noticed that younger artists have real problems with how to apply shades in their art. Most tutorials that are already out there is more showing off the artists skills rather then explaining methods and materials. In my opinion that not what a tutorial is for. Who knows I just might submit more if requested. Feed back is always welcome.

One hour of sleep is next before my lame ass work; pray that he will leave me alone.